what do i think?

I still believe in love even when u tell me it doesnt exist, even when situation lets me see its a useless phenomenon but yet i still believe in love. just because you dont see the beauty in me doesnt mean i am not beautiful, just because you love me conditionally doesnt mean i am not loved unconditionally, what makes you think life without you for me is dead?

If i ever made you feel that way am sorry cos you know what? life without you is only the begining of better things to come.

Am not fooled that life is any easier out of my marriage but my consolation is that i will be free to explore as many options as i deem fit and make a choice based on wisdom and not my heart which you almost successed in recking.

IN all of this i am not blameless never said i was or even pretended to be, there have been times i should have stood my ground and not spoilt you silly with laziness or even indulged you into lording yourself over me or times when i had to lick your ass just for the sake of peace, i should have known that all that would backfire one day.

But who can blame me whats wrong in loving your man so much you almost wanna give your self to him whats wrong in worshipping the ground on which he walks on?

whats worng with that? whats wrong in wanting to keep my man? and saving the one thing i have always believed in MARRIAGE?

All said and done i have had good times with you many good times and even now i so wish things were different between us i guess the greatest mistake i made was letting you lord ur self over me i shouldnt have becasue thats what caused the whole problem.
Ask me how?
Good i will tell you

Now listen

It all started when i made up my mind one sunday afternoon enough was enough i wasnt taking it anymore so i started telling you how i felt, you called it nagging

Then i read all the books on earth to know how to talk to you, then tried another approach as suggested by the books, so i clamed down and spoke to you in a soft toned voice when you were in high spirits and when we had no disagreement, the moment i started, you called it complaining! only you haba!

wetin i do Ok oh i didnt give up i started to pray then i read a part of the bible that said be at peace with all men so i said 'if talking wasnt good enough Tinted Untrue just keep quiet and see if he comes around, then you called it malice keeping and started your own

Then i deceided to start living a lie and agreeing with you on everything just for peace i stopped saying anything, being too quiet, or even talking about our issues all i did was fulfill my duties as a wife, prayed for you, tried to satisfy you in bed, keep the house clean and just watch our lives like a soap opera then guess what you called it boring!

Then i said to myself what can i do to make this interesting so i started doing things to please you wearing those uncomfortable lingeries u love so much on TV, started giving you BJ which i hate so much i curse the monk that started it. infact i turned to your slave, served your meal late into the night cos thats when you wanted it, did your laundry cleaned after you, ran your erands and all what not and yet you called it choking!