8th act of betrayal ( My life Begins)

After the orientation camp i got my posting to a secondary school to be a teacher then they changed it for me to work in the local government has what i don't know this nysc thing should be scrapped its absolute waste of one year, time energy resources and life. Anyway i knew i wasn't going to faithfully serve for a whole year in kano i had made all the necessary arrangements and someone was going to be collecting my allawi and sign for me. And that's how i left kano city with the intention to only return in case of emergency oh.



I was glad to be back home and my mind couldn't stop thinking about amechi and how i had left him i didn't even see him again and wasn't even bothered well that's life i thot to myself the only guilt i felt was that i had let God down! so i carried my bible again and began to raybash( speak in tongues) I was a joke!



I knew i had to do something while back home so i started chasing one or two jobs with my fathers help of course! I needed to keep busy but unfortunately nothing came so i had no choice but to sit at home and engage in all sorts. I visited my friends regularly.

A friend of mine had a still birth while i was in camp, i needed to pay her a visit so myself and two of my other friends went to pay her a visit. she looked in good condition and seemed to have healed, there were few other peeps there as well but my eyes caught this one guy tall dark really good looking in fact handsome that's the word, he laughed at everything that was said by his friends, i just didn't want to believe everything was funny. Anyway i got introduced to him he was half yoruba half hausa that made me like him alot but his name was Joshua he was a christian we got talking and discovered we had alot in common i liked him no doubt and he seemed to like me alot too.



My friends thot we looked good together anyway Joshua and i had alot to talk bout and he was quite opened to me except that he had just been jilted by his fiancee who left him for a richer man that sponsored her to the uk for her masters programme and for some funny reasons felt joshua wasn't good enough for her. I felt she was the loser cause he seemed like a simple and nice guy to me, he made it plain to me he wasn't looking for flings but that he wanted to settle down blah blah blah, we exchanged nos he dropped me off at home and that's how we became friends oh!



Joshua called me like mad every day and i even shortened his name to josh he became my friend, he visited me at home my dad liked him my mum had her reservations but wetin concern me and her! we became best of friends so i thot. he confided in him he was a no dresser but he had dough!



while out on a date with joshua, one day he asked me to marry him just like that! i wasn't comfortable with the request cause in my heart i felt he hadn't gotten over his ex and maybe i was just a bloody rebound! I had to tread carefully so i told him to give me time and allow us some time to grow. He didn't seem happy with my answer but said he would wait till whenever i was ready and so we left it at that. During one of our solitary moments of sharing each others lives and past events i told him about Donald and everything including the abortion not the abortions! I felt if i was going to share my life with you then you should know one or two things, habi!



Joshua changed after that day he told me he understood and that he would be true to me but my peeps nah lie he talk oh he stopped calling he stopped visiting and gradually started misbehaving oh and before i knew what was happening we had drifted apart. I was broken hearted and just couldn't understand what was happening. We hadn't gotten physical whatsoever he always said he had wait till after the wedding.



Anyways month went by i prayed and prayed to God to bring him back to his senses i asked if it was because of what i told him as per Donald he said no that he just needed to sort himself out as per his ex and some other emotional issues. Well after what seemed like eternity of waiting for him to change his mind i made up my mind to forget him and move on.



Some how fate brought us together at the bank and we got talking again went for lunch he seemed to have changed he was more carefree with his words. we became friends again and he started calling and visiting but he wasn't talking about marriage anymore he drifted away from the topic anytime i tried to bring it up. And so i dropped the subject and vowed never to bring it up again.





During one of my visits to his place i decided to spend the night i slept in the guest room but in the middle of the night joshua was right beside me touching and all you can imagine his dick was as hard as rock for some reasons i wasn't turned on something inside of me just didn't want to have sex with this man who was a chameleon! All said and done i gave in to his demands and pretended like i enjoyed the sex i didn't! cos my mind wasn't there, i felt used! Mirage felt used! I also discovered that same night that he had one testicles as in one ball! i found that a bit irritating but what could i do. To add to my amusement he also smoked never ever did i think he did! My God what had happened to this guy? had he always been like this? and me not notice cos i was blinded by his sweetness and moral talk?





After that night he started his withdrawal act again and this time i was ready for it but to be honest i felt used really used. well it wasn't any ones fault but mine. I also noticed he kinda of liked a friend of mine cos every time we were all together he made comments bout how hot she looked and blah blah, i didn't want to believe he had gotten that bad so i decided to set him up. Asked my friend to call him and ask to see him he was meant to see me too that day so the moron called me and said " mirage i wont be able to make it will see you tmrw" i asked why he said " my house help just burnt the kitchen" yet my friend was right beside me he called her and said he was on his way and she teased and teased him about how she wanted to get naked with him and all what not he said he had pick her and take her to his place.



The madman showed up a few hours later my friend got into the car and before you knew he was touching her she beeped me on my cell to come when i got to his car and tapped on his window he was shocked! he started to stammer something like "oh u are here" the guy was a complete idiot a bastard a no good he wanted to continue to do me and do my closest friend. My friend yabbed him he asked us both to get out of his car he was not remorseful my friend insulted him all i did was just watch i was in shock so if it wasn't a set up this christian fellow would have fucked my friend i was in shock. After much said and done he drove off and i cried my life out. Men were just dogs!



He called about a week later to apologise and blamed it on the devil, i kinda of forgave him but couldn't tell my friend i was seeing him again, didn't want to seem foolish but i was! I knew i was wasting my time with him but just held on for some funny reasons and couldn't help but think of how useless a man he was. One of his friends was celebrating his party and i was like the cook and all i noticed Joshua was with this girl he introduced her to me as his friend and he had given her my CV for a job cause she told me she had help me with it for PWC! I didn't attach much importance to seeing them together maybe i should have because three months later i heard she was pregnant for him and that they were getting married in her hometown from a another friend of mine who didn't know Joshua and i were still seeing!



I didn't have to confront him cause my heart knew it was true all i did was delete his no from my phone and sent him a text never to call me again. 4 months later Joshua got married to this girl and then my life BEGAN!