A new Dawn!

Femi came back and i had gotten rid of the pregnancy, i had made up my mind i wasnt going to say a word of it to him. He was all sweet when he saw me and we quickly forgave each other of the way we both acted when he was away but my conscience wouldnt let me be. Femi had been my confidant from ages and i felt he deserved to know what i did while he was away but i couldnt bring myself to tell him anything one of his friends had seen Tokunbo and i on a date i wasnt sure if the guy was going to tell him but then i couldnt could i? i was going mad with worry.

On my birthday Femi threw a surpise party for me and invited a whole bunch of peeps i hadnt seen in a long while i was excited and felt loved and appreciated but my heart felt like i didnt deserve this guy, i had to tell him so i called him aside and told him i had something to say he asked me to keep it for later that it was my birthday and i deserved to make it special i insisted and started the long useless story of my betrayal and all, he just listened and nodded and did alot of hmmmm! HMMMMMMMM! then more EHEHEHEN! and all, i was getting scared he wasnt looking at me anymore after i finished my story he asked if i had finished and i said yes he excused himself and left the party without a word to me.

I called him he refused to pick my calls he refused to see me he was not just going to forgive me. why should he i often asked myself why? Its not like we borke up i was two timinig and instead of hiding it i had the guts to tell him.

After what seemd like a decade he called me and asked me to come over to his house i told him i couldnt cause honestly i didnt know what to expect after Donalds wonderful treat no way no more shockers. He insisited i agreed after much persuassion i called a friend of mine up and asked her to go to his house first and see if they were having any ceremony, she called back to say no. so i got to Femis place his dad and mum were home i wasnt comfortable i felt he had told them something the guilty run when no one chases them that was my case. Femi took me to his room locked his door opened his wardrobe and brought out a carrier bag i was still scared, he sat beside me and looked at me for a long time he brought out a small box and said i was going to give this to you on your birthday my heart skipped, he asked me to open it i said no need but i did open it it was a beautiful platinum engagement ring, i held it in my hands and wept like i had been beaten he cuddled me and before i could say a word i knelt on my knees and begged for his forgiveness told him i didnt deserve to be his girlfriend but that i wanted him to forgive me for the sake of our friendship as a friend. He held me up and told me how he had forgiven me and how the last few months had been for him i was praying he had say he also cheated on me so that i would feel comfortable but he said he didnt and i believed him. i gave him back his ring and left his house in tears. I had just lost the most precious friend i had ever had.

I was miserable and lost weight so much that my mother thot i had HIV! she literally dragged me to the hosiptal for a test which was negative thank God i was kinda of hopin it had be positive so that i would die, but no God had other plans for me. I didnt see or hear from femi again and for me that was fine i messed up no doubt! BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

Thats not what God had in stock for me oh During the end of year party organised by my bank we went to the beach during one of the weekends to have fun i had made up my mind not to go but my closest friend dragged me there she felt i was drowning in my sorrow and self pity she teased me about meeting someone nice and having another chance to make it right. That didnt motivate me cause i didnt want to meet anyone i just wanted to be by myself. anyway i went for the party oh and low and behold who did i see FEMI what was he doing here?, maybe he came with a friend? mabye this? mabye that? anyway he came to say hi to me and asked if we could talk. we took a walk down the beach i felt ok the sand was good for my legs therefore good for my nerves after much said and done my peeps Femi proposed to me on the beach! it was a shock for me i thot it was a set up a get back, a revenge i was scared i said yes yes yes and cried like a baby but i was still scared he was going to dumb me. He had planned coming down with my friend who knew what he was up to.

Months after it was marriage talk everywhere oh my folks were exicted the marriage date had been fixed his parents were all excited Femi seemed to be too but i was the only one not so exicted my heart kept telling me this was too good to be real and that it wasnt going to happen, i was counting down, my heart was skipping i was fasting and praying i was having dreams i just wasnt ok mentally, emotionally, phyiscally, everything was wrong with me.

November came oh and the day came oh i was still not sure i purposely was sluggish and made up my mind to get to the church late my mum yelled, my dad yelled only i knew what i was doing, i got to church 30mins late for my own wedding and there he was standing right there waiting for me i thot i was still day dreaming i looked beautiful but still wasnt sure he wasnt going to jilt me. The ceremony began the pastors preached prayed and when the time to exchange vows came i started weeping profusley Femi didnt know why, the pastor thot i was over joyed the guest thot i was overwhelmed only i knew what was going on, we exchanged vows and rings and then and then he kissed me and said" u are mine forever now nothing will take u away from me except death"