The love i once knew has become a stranger to me, the all of you has become so sour to me! i wake up in the morning and despise the sight of you sleeping beside me, i look at you and ulter the words i hate you in my sub conscious, the rage i feel inside of me towards you envelopes my reasoning. yet despite all this i still manage to ulter the words " i love you" and mean it, then again i wonder if am losing my mind or if i have just accepted my fate of not being able to love you anymore and just living by waiting to be rescued from this madness called marriage!
The reality is i might never have the strength to leave you not because i cant but simply because its too much trouble and maybe too much money! so i'll wait for you to say the words so you can spend the money to free me!
A stranger you have become to me, i cant believe i never really knew you i thought i did i must have been intoxicated with love and blinded by your deceit.
I hate so much about you so much even this pages cannot contain them but let me start listing them maybe just maybe i might see why i should love you again?
- I hate that you are so handsome which makes you so vain. and with the useless notion if i leave another will replace me without you blinking an eye! How selfish
- I hate how you snore it drives me seriously insane i havent slept for a whole yr cos of this!
- I hate how you treat me as a competition never interested in my career development, my spirituality, my sensaulity, my everything that makes me so special and unique
- I hate that you dont compliment me even when i go out of my way to wear uncomfortable wears for you and costly hair styles
- I hate the way you flirt with everything in skirt and how you discuss our matters with them all because you want to *uck them.
- I hate the fact that you are so, so into your self never including me in your plans
- I hate the fact that your mother comes first, U had rather confide in her than to me. Sometimes i wonder why you didnt marry her. Mummy,s boy still sucking his mother breast!
- I hate the fact you disrespect me and belittle me at every given opportunity
- I hate that you are a terrible liar
- I hate that i have to seduce you to have sex with me yet u are such a bore in bed
- I hate the fact that you keep secrets to your self how foolish of you if only you knew how much i know!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA
- I hate how you kiss, i ask how i never realised you had such a big tongue all this while. love is crazy and overrated!
- I hate how you try to control me and maltreat me.
- I hate that you lie to people about the way i look not because its true but just to make them think you have good taste, u are more concerned about them looking down on you than on me.
- I hate the fact that no one can reprimand you when you are wrong not even your mother how much more your father
- I hate that i speak to you and you turn deaf ears to my cry, i hate that i cant communicate with you when i have to.
- I hate that i cant talk to you. I hate it
- I hate that you make all our decisons
- I hate that you still live and dine in the sixties
- I hate that you fall out of love with me every now and then
- I hate depending on you cause you are such an unkind man
- I hate that your love for me is conditional i have to impress you to get a medal of love!
- I hate that i met you
- I hate how you keep malice and never forgiving, sometimes i wonder why God doesnt strike you down!
- I hate how you treat my family, no love no respect.
- I hate the fact that you dont take me as one to you always trying to prove you are the lord over me. GOD FORBID BAD THING!
- I hate how unwise you are
- I hate the fact that you act like a ten yr old so narrow minded
- I hate when you lie to me, and i hate it even more that i make you feel smart when you really aint
- I hate the fact that you have allowed women to be the centre of your life, i hate that you are so gulliable with them believing every stupid thing you hear and living a fake life
- I hate how you get carried away with the outward appearance of women and compare them to me
- I hate that you are so unrealistic in your thinking!
- I hate how you depriveme of my rights as a woman in the house
- I hate how you talk to me like a slave
- I hate that you want to ruin me
- I hate how you tell the whole world your plans even before you execute them how dumb of you!
- I hate the fact that the world sees you as a great man, that drives me nuts, you know why? cos that makes me look like a liar or a troublesome person which am not.
- I hate how you compain about how i look, what i ought to be wearing, buying etc
- I hate the fact that you dont lift a finger in the house to help in the house and yet never say thank you
- I hate the fact that you want to turn me into your toy and plaything
- I hate how you use me i.e. only come to me for sex when it suits you
- I hate how maniuplative you can be
- I hate that we dont pray together or even go to church
- I hate you watching porn when am around or even chatting online with your women when am around no respect!
- I hate how you say you cant stand me farting around you yet you do the same damn thing all the time
- I hate that you treat me like your slave and insult me.
- I hate how you threaten me all the time
- I hate how i love you yet hate you!
- I hate that i lost the twins becasue of you, your constant stressing me made me lose two lives u cant bring back.........................................
15 comments:
I never knew u were married. I'm sorry that u r going thru all these.
Wat baffles me is that u r still with him. Y?
oriented maybe becos divorce is expensive. lol
oriented@sometimes these reasons might not be enough to leave a man u truly love!
Babes i feel you i find we share similar list but men i think mine is even longer than urs. These men we just love to hate yet stay with them still.challenges of marriage
" The reality is i might never have the strength to leave you not because i cant but simply because its too much trouble and maybe too much money! so i'll wait for you to say the words so you can spend the money to free me!" this applies to me so much
I am so sorry you are going through this difficulty. May God give strength and wisdom to you both.
God dey.
Hang in there might sound like a cliche and i understand your fears about the cost and trouble of a divorce but the longer you stay in there, the more you loose yourself and your pride is all you gat. So act on what is right and save yourself.
I sympathize with you......
i believe you should tell him to be honest. writing is good but telling him is better
I never knew you were married!
all i can say is when things get rough, get on your knees, I'll echo solomonsydelle...
Even when the road seems crooked (the causes for our hatreds) He is continually willing to make them striaght. We only need to put it (all our cares) on the table before Him.
It shall surely be well, hold on to faith.
Even when the road seems crooked (the causes for our hatreds) He is continually willing to make them striaght. We only need to put them (all our cares) on the table before Him.
It shall surely be well, hold on to faith.
Awww, babes take heart so gbo. It's all a phase, just try your best and talk to God. I know its easier said than done but God will be with you.
eyyy..mehn youre tryin sha..if this is about Femi..then i'l have to take back the comment i made on your latest post..he wasnt actin outta maturity..he just saw that sumfin that he takes for granted, sumin he thought was his alone could be taken away from him just like that..and that wud KILL his ego...
argh! guys and their ego problems..just take it easy sha..them kinda people are frustrating..i feel you on the inability to communicate part..and yet whenever they want to talk you have to be all ears and make encouraging sounds..
stiiiiil dont get HOW and what excaclty you saw in him..abi his fineness blinded you? (na normal thing oh!)...just pray nd hang in there..we'll add our own!
OMG MY darling..my heart bled as i read this post!
and u r still with him?
hmm, babes it is well
God would continue to be with you
during this painful times
you would have reason to smile again ok
xxx
Painful stuff. I read, hear and watch things like this and I wonder if I really am ready/ want to get married. God give you strength, grace, and peace.
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